Yesterday I wrote a post with a little snip-it of the cover of a book, from a Cover Contest. I simply asked if anyone knew what book it was from. To be honest, it didn't even occur to me that I may have been cheating.
I had searched and searched so hard for what that book was. I literally spent hours just trying to find that last cover; I had figured out all the rest! So it seemed like a waste to just give up after spending my entire afternoon on the Cover Contest. That's why I made that post yesterday asking for help. It was like my last chance. And to tell you guys the truth, I didn't even think anyone would see it or comment on it. I barely ever get comments when I really want them, so I was surprised at the number of people that did! The majority of the comments said how I was a cheater, shame on me, tsk tsk, etc. And it made me feel really bad! I definitely don't want everyone thinking that I have to cheat in order to win - because I wasn't even aware that I was cheating. Some of you may still look down on me or something, but I just wanted to say I'm sorry. Sorry I did that. Sorry I "shamed" some of you. Sorry I'm not perfect. It won't happen again.
I already feel judged enough at school, and I don't want it to travel to here, on the blogosphere, too. Sometimes when I come home, I feel like this blog is all I have left. Because on here, no one is mean or hurtful - especially to my face. I don't want to lose that safe feeling I get while I'm on here, where I feel like I can just speak my mind even though barely anyone is even listening. It may seem very small to you guys, but it means so much to me. Thanks! :)
- Wednesday, July 7, 2010